I Am Flawed

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Flawed “What is your worst quality?”

When I read this I didn’t want to answer it – mainly because my flaws are a big deal to me. Plus, I don’t know if I could pick just one worst quality. I definitely have a couple qualities that are capable of being deemed my worst quality. That seems bad, doesn’t it? Oh well. I created this blog so I could start expressing my thoughts, so I’m not going to hold anything back.

I have a problem trusting people.

Seems cliche but it’s true. I’m not exactly sure when this problem started. It hasn’t always been an issue in my life. I was probably too trusting at one point. That’s hard to believe considering where I am now in this area. I just have a really hard time believing people are genuine – I feel as though they always have an ulterior motive that I don’t know about. In return, I have a hard time forming relationships with anyone. I push people away. If I took the time to think about why this even because an issue in the first place, I could probably overcome it, but honestly, I don’t think I want to think about it.

I have low self esteem. 

This is something I hate to admit. I really hate to admit this. Why? I don’t know. I guess I like to think of myself as someone who is bubbling with all of this confidence, but that’s just not true. Granted – I have moments where I feel happy with who I am as a person – but it never lasts for very long. I always manage to knock myself down. Something that really bothers me is when people try and make you feel bad for having self esteem issues. I’ve been told things like “Confidence is key” or “I like confidence so be confident.” This normally results in an intense, prolonged irritated look on my face. I realize confidence is key and most people do prefer someone who is confident, but just because I know this, does not mean I can suddenly become secure with myself. It’s a work in process.

I worry way too much. 

I worry about anything and everything. I don’t like the idea of not knowing what’s going to happen down the road – it’s scary in my opinion. I worry that my future isn’t going to turn out like I planned. I worry that I’m not going in the right direction. I worry that people don’t really care (which coincides with the whole low self esteem thing). Most of the things I worry about are small and irrelevant but I still manage to worry anyways. I am happy to say this one has gotten better lately. I have learned to accept things and worry less.

 

All in all, everyone is flawed. Many people see flaws in a negative light – I definitely do this when taking my own flaws into consideration – but flaws are just another thing that makes us all unique. What’s so negative about that? Absolutely nothing! If you can’t change it, embrace it.

 

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I Am Flawed

9 thoughts on “I Am Flawed

  1. I definitely relate to your flaws, as some of my own too. People always give advice, I would rather a discussion on grass growth, since they want to discuss something not completely knowable to either of us. We’ll done!! I started my blog with the same intention and keep to it.

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  2. I think that as we get older, we naturally become more aware of our flaws. We become more mature and realistic. As we get older, we increasingly realize that our life really is in our own hands. 🙂 Thanks for sharing!

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